i find myself seeing you again

Hello friend.

Remember when I started this blog I said that it was private?

Yeah, I think I'm done with that.

Don't get me wrong. I love having a private blog where I don't need to worry about what I say, but in all honesty, I do worry. I worry that a friend will find it and tell everyone else it's out there. I'd rather just be open about everything so I don't need to be worried about being "found out."

I've also realized that I haven't felt very motivated to post. I want to be able to really share this blog and I guess I was hesitant to post before because I knew that I couldn't really get my word out to the people around me for fear that it would eventually get out to the people who are regularly in my life. Not like I said anything bad about the people who are in my life on here, because I don't. Nor do I intend to. I just like the idea of being more open.

So I'm going public. And now instead of asking complete strangers not to judge me, I'm asking my friends not to judge me.

So here's a quick update on what's been happening in my life since April when I last wrote in here.

George was here in the states! It was incredible! I can't even begin to tell you all the wonderful stories we have accumulated. We went to Agloe, Wizard Rock shows, the Con Tour, VidCon, Six Flags, New York City and so much more. We spent this summer showing the people around us that two people can become best friends even from opposite sides of the world.

He's back in New Zealand now, which is still a little bit difficult for me to handle. When you're used to seeing and talking to someone everyday for about three months, not having them next to you feels wrong.

I'm currently at school and swamped as ever. I'd rather not talk about that seeing as I spent all day doing homework (except for the hour that was spent watching the lastest Doctor Who episode).

This summer has been a very inspiring segment of my life. I want to vlog more, write more, play my guitar more. I've started writing some songs and I've been working on tons of covers that I am ridiculously excited about sharing. I've got some new inspiration for writing some stories that I started in the past and never got around to finishing. I want to make vlogging more regular. After seeing how passionately people talked about it at VidCon and realizing how I really can meet some of the most incredible people in the world through it, it's something that I know I want to pursue and continue and just have fun doing.

Hopefully this all turns out alright. Since I am really busy with school and graduate school applications, a lot of my creativity will have to be moderated for a bit. I think I can handle that though. So bear with me, please.

And welcome to my new public blog. I'm excited to post in here again. Really. I know I've said that in the past but now that I feel more open I think I really will keep the motivation going.

Currently playing on my iPod: Taylor Swift - Speak Now

From reading any of my past entries, you should know that I am a hopeless romantic. This song is pretty much a romantic daydream. The best part... It comes true. Not to mention, the song is incredible and I absolutely love to blast this song while driving with my windows down.